soooo, fourth year just started and....... HECK YEAH am i so pumped and ready to learn, to grow, and to see the way "Angelica Abad, BScN, RN" will shape out to be!! I've already done a couple of things that I probably wouldn't have done otherwise-- example: jumping the gun and contacting my preceptor first, who was impressed by my enthusiasm because, as he has said, "no student has ever contacted me first!" (and then we established out communication through text, where he texts like an actual Tito). but so far, fourth year has begun on a pretty enthusiastic note and i am so grateful for that.
i did my sim and skills lab by myself (as in, without signing up with a friend as a safety net. i just chose a date that would work and i happened to be in the same lab as people i already knew) and i am so glad i did! my sim lab group was small, but it was fun. for all the simulation labs we've had during nursing school, i've never been the nurse and i've always made an effort to avoid being the nurse. however, that day i volunteered to be the nurse for the second scenario, alongside stephanie. it was challenging, but so rewarding to be able to practice what may be a real scenario i could encounter within a safe space. All while being able to receive feedback from my peers and an experienced nurse! so i definitely wish i hadn't taken the sim labs for granted in the past, but that's all done and over with now.
and even though week 1 has just ended, there's already so many things to do that are piling up-- studying for HESI, reviewing for the NCLEX, group projects n such-- and it's getting a tad bit stressful, right now it's a good kind of stress. the wake up call stress that kicks your butt into action and makes you realize, "dude in 8 months i'd have graduated and on my way to getting my license. 4 years really few by". and i'm sure that is the reality check every one in this program, and all the friends that i have made over the years, are starting to realize now.
anyway, my first clinical day is on wednesday and i'm hella anxious but excited. im glad my preceptor seems willing to let me learn and willfully guide me on the right path, after being out of the game for a year and for being such a timid and shy nursing student for the first 2. it's never too late! the best time to start was yesterday, and the second best time to start is today as i always say. so praise God for allowing me to get here so far! and with all the support i have in my corner, i feel like no matter what may happen, i'll be able to get through it with my head held high. there's always something to be learned from every experience i have, but this year i'm going to take full advantage of the opportunities and keep seeing the positive in it all!
